Desperation

Okay, so, whenever I have my moments of "Oh crap, there's no way I'm going to get anywhere in life" I buy a lottery ticket, which I attempted to do today. Except... the machine wouldn't take my money. I think it's a sign.

So Long Summer

Earlier today, one of my friends mentioned this being the best summer of her life, and... you know what? It was the best summer of my life. Or, at least, the best summer since I started high school, half a decade ago.

Not only have I actually acquired a social life - well, as much of one as a nerd can have - but I accomplished things. Also, a major hurdle, I finally moved on with my life. I finally let go of a lot of the issues I'd been bogged down with, and I must say, it's quite a relief.

I was ridiculously busy, barely got any sleep, and got frustrated more than a few times with people, but I had fun. I can honestly say, I got the most out of this summer, and accept the fact that it's over. Don't get me wrong, I really, really, don't want to start school on Monday, but this is a better state than I am normally in prior to the beginning of a semester.

Come to think of it... my first post on this blog was at the start of a semester. Considering how differently things turned out from what I had hoped for in that post... I'd rather not think too much about what might happen. I'm just going to embrace my impulsive nature, and wing it.

Hmmm...

This past weekend... it was epic yet insanely stressful at the same time. I'm not really sure what to think.

One last week before Fall semester begins. I'll probably cram as much as possible into the remaining time, rather than get the rest I need. Oh well, at list I'm consistent.

Today

Today was a really good day. I had fun. Though it certainly wasn't perfect, there weren't too many complications. It was... refreshing..? I mean, good things happen every day, but there are certain days where you're having such a good time that things don't bother you as much anymore. That was today.

Oh, sure, I mad as I could possibly be at a few people, but it's not bringing me down. Not today.

Who Knows

It's another one of those late nights. Yes, I realize it is 8:30am and technically morning, but I have yet to go to sleep - not that I plan on doing so. I'm not sure if it's the sleep deprivation, or a sheer coincidence, but it seems like I always end up rather jaded when this happens. It's like, all the things I hate about life are suddenly on my mind. Maybe it's just because I have all this extra time to think?

Who knows.

Anyway, aside from my random bout of emo, I went to a concert on Thursday night. This is a fairly normal activity for me, and was not particularly different from any other concert I've been to. I became absorbed with the music, jealous of those on stage, and contemplative of life. The usual.

Other than that I -

......

I just realized I only have two weeks of summer left. WHAT AM I SITTING HERE BLOGGING FOR?!?!?!

Random Thoughts

So, it's been awhile since I last wrote a remotely interesting blog post. I'd apologize, but there are so few of you that actually read this, there's really no point.

Is it just me, or has this past year been backwards? I mean, generally, I'm somewhat busy during the school year, and then completely bored during the summer. The past few semesters, I've been bored out of my mind with absolutely NOTHING to do. (See blog posts prior to May.) Then, all of a sudden it's May and my schedule is jam packed. Is this what college is like? No, I don't think so. It's probably just me.

Well, anyway, all this contemplation - or rather, random thinking - was brought on by looking at my schedule for the upcoming season. It'll be my first semester with absolutely NO online classes. (Horrifying isn't it?) I'll be taking two required classes - English and Algebra - and two for fun/units classes - Drawing and Choir. On top of the fact that I really, really need to do well this Fall - I won't go into the details, but let's just say my GPA isn't at it's best right now - I still have my cosplay group meetings every week, D&D every week, AND Guild Wars 2 comes out this November as well. (I know, a lot of you non-gamers out there are rolling your eyes at me, but GW2 is serious business.)

Because of all of this, I probably won't be participating in NaNoWriMo this year. (Or maybe I will and just fail miserably. Again.)

Anyway, I digress. As I look toward the daunting season ahead, I realize I should take advantage of the less than three weeks I have left. What does this mean? As soon as I finish cleaning my room - my current task at hand - I will be gaming like there's no tomorrow. Yes, that is my idea of a productive summer. Bite me.

Meh

Drama. I hate drama. Why do people drag me into it? I try so hard to avoid it.

Whatever.

When Not Saying Something Says A Lot

While browsing through my unpublished posts for this blog, I noticed one that simply said "Politics are" and then nothing. The funny thing is, that describes my feelings toward all things political quite well. They're just too much of a pain to discuss.